* The Problem:
Too unfocused in writing. I have four fan fictions in progress right now, one of which has been waiting for over a year for the last chapter (Turkish Delight), another which has been waiting 10 months (Take Me). One is an art trade (Straitjacket). I have yet to receive that trade, so I might table that fic, but the other is something I only work on when I have nothing else on my plate (Lesser Heroes). I try to work on Take Me every day, but other things, *cough-sequels-cough* Tend to get in the way. Like Infancy. Worse, new fics pop up in my head. Even WORSE, I sometimes sneak away to work on one of my original novels. But then I'll invariably get a PM or review asking when such-and-such fic will be done -usually Take Me- and that brings me back. I got a really funny one this week:
Finish this shit dammit! I've been following u for years! Fi wish your shit dammit! No I refuse. I could punch your ass. U know your my favorite. Damm just wanna choke a bitch...years dammit! Following ur ass around. This is some messed up shit. You had me crying and laughing. Stop playing with my emotions! . could merk yo ass. Giant ass tease
The was for Lesser Heroes. Made me laugh, but I also cringed. Now, anyone who knows me that I do in fact finish what I start, no matter how long it takes. If I feel I can't finish something, or if circumstances surrounding the fic have changed, then it gets deleted. But as long as a fic is still up, and still labeled as In Progress...it'll get done. Waiting sucks, I know, but I'm doing the best I can.
I seriously don't know. My writing has suffered since I started working. I work seven days a week. Evenings are when I call myself doing laundry, cooking, or cleaning when in fact I'm face-planting onto the nearest horizontal surface. I actually leave for work 3 hours before I need to be there so I can sit in Dunkin Donuts, notepad ready, and contemplate the wisdom of buying a muffin for a buck ninety-five as fuel for the creative process. Sometimes I actually get writing done. Sometimes not. A lot of my writing is done during slow hours at work, which I then tell myself I will transcribe from my notebook to my laptop. Well, I now have three notebooks worth of shit that needs to be transferred. And I just picked up another notebook at the dollar store.
Let's focus on this fic for now. It's shaping up to be another TTB (don't ask, if you don't already know. It was a nightmare). I took 17 months off before I finally finished that monstrosity, but I can't do that this time. If the one year mark comes and I haven't posted the last chapter to TM, I will shoot myself. I want it off my hands. The problem with the last chapter is just too much info. Now, I'd decided to split the chapter, but I don't want to actually have to do that. It'd be multiplying the problem. On the other hand, I don't want to skimp on any details. I've re-written the trouble areas, but the parts I'm writing now are so boring to me that I'm losing motivation to write at all. And if it's boring to me, it'll be boring to readers, so despite what I think are necessary deets, I think I'm going to have to edit that junk out. Write ONLY the necessary info, all the good stuff, and then go back and elaborate if and when I need to. Not how I usually roll, but this chap's got issues with me. Bottom line, I'm giving myself 10 days to have the chap complete. Editing and polishing can come after, but I have to stop getting side-tracked...
Just looked at the exact date I posted Turkish Delight. It's been nearly two years, not just one. That has to get finished ASAP.
*Sigh*....I can't with myself right now. Just can't.